gym at sydenham

the fucking bitch is on my case. Loads of work on though. Possibilities not actual work.

gym at lunch time. i think i prefer sydenham. The car parking is free, loads of TMs , better machines and better looking women.

vlm SPONSERSHIP stuff arrived today

Kids arguing, wife shitty and putting pressure on my to get the fuck out of her life. she really is such a bitch.

6ms usual route ce soir. slow i think but it was quite hot.

VLM stuff arrived , sponsership struggle starts now i guess.

Looking forward to those colder weather LSR's

also looking forward to being with someone new. Budgie cage getting  polished

6ms usual route

hurting knee, not as hot as it was.

Gold bond place confirmation for VLM arrived yesterday. fucking go me

38 mile week last week

the longest mileage week since the VLM, well done me

take me to the bridge ( again)

some weights and some TM, at least you can park the car, and the TM's seem to work.

fucking hot

6ms in 30deg.

i must be mad even thinking about marathon des sables

The bridge

 5ms TM and some weights at the gym. Really fucked off

another thing i'm afraid of

10.I'll always be unhappy
11. Telling my mother about me and s
12. i'll never snap out of this
13. i'll get fat again

ran to work and back again

it's 5.5ms each away. hardish both ways, with ten flights of stairs in the middle up and down

that's me , up and down

ran to work and back

8.5ms with full back sac.

quite hard , going to do it again in the morning ( i think) .Much more fun than driving

after work

6ms after work. hot and sweaty.

A new list for the future

1. someone interested in things i like, and not not willfully opposite.

Something else I'm scared of

8. having to move to sidcup

more relate

reminiscing about the old times yesterday. `It was all my fault apparently. Oh yeah she's worried about me, ffs. her and me both.

6ms usual route yesterday, friday and gym today.

More running about

10K this lunchtime

going to tell my mum about our seperation today

tracey thorn

I knew i would b able to listen to her cd all about seperation and divorce.  i was snorting , i was was crying so much, within minutes. Not in a good place and i'm thinking of adding things I'm bitter about to things i'm scared of. things are really looking up.

the first thing I'm bittter about

1. you , you sour faced drone toned negative moaned out  bitch.

I could get to enjoy this.

hot and humid

7ms  - usual route

it was a couple of months ago but i knew i was in trouble in my b in law the idiotic fred didn't comment on how me and s were getting on. he knew. if only he know how muh i want to  sleep with his mrs

6m run quite hot

as above, quite hot, head thick but quite quick.

what else am a scared of.

8. Never seeing my kids at xmas again

gym

another thing i'm scared of,

number 7  -  the kids having to change schools as we all have to move out of the area.

went to ladywell gym, only two working TM's. Much busier and i think i prefer arena

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He runs in the rain. Seem a little alergic to long distances at the mo

Fucking Bitch

6ms usual route today. Mot feeling brilliant

Gym

TM hill session 40mins plus gym session normal

what else am afraid of

6. our relate councliller

another thing i'm scared of

4. not seeing my kids
5. that they won't love me anymore
6. that they won't come to my new place
7. that i'll spend every xmas on my own

running monday, tuesday, wednesday,thursday.....................

Ran 6 miles all those days

more fear

6ms at lunchtime

head hurts

the third thing i'm scared of

3. losing my job

OK - a list of all the things that worry me. INPO

1`. Money
2. my health

to be continued...

gym at lunch time today

what's worrying me

This was going to a long post.

7ms  in the neighbourhood and gym yesterday

ran to work thursday

it was hot, and only 3.5ms this pm as head hurting

can't remember whether i trained on tuesday - i did

some gym after work