LSR Sunday

I did two circuits of L/well and lewisham. 17ms  and the last  4 miles quite hard. Been thinking a lot about greg  since it came up at my relate session. I was in floods in seconds. i hadn't spoken about it at such length for 25 years. How i was pretty much there whan he died, how bloated from all the medicine he was, how we watched a documentary on the far right that last night we saw each other, how we laughed at the craziness of the rascists, how i think i dodged questions about what we would do when he was better , how his mother and step father thanked me for for being a good friend to greg while he was alive at his funeral, all kind of thoughts ,and real tears ,today. i remember going to the house of a girl i really fancied, i saw a photo of her years later, I had great taste. Greg was there too, egging me on i think. She lived in a big house on aldwick bay and we met her in some kind of summer house. legend had it that her mum and dad were very strict and so when her father  came over to see what the commotion was  Greg and i hid behind a door and later when we sprinted off i was intoxicated by the drama of it all. we were both really laughing and nothing up and till then had been as funny. i remember being by the bus stop the day i heard Greg wasn't well. A school friend told me he  had been rushed to a ITU in chichester. I saw him a few days later. the glands around his neck were awash with cancer  and had started constricting his wind pipe. he had a scar from the emergency op to get him breathing. he had hodgkinsons desease. I really miss him